I try my best to throw myself into my writing on the days when I hurt. It seems my best work comes from those days when it rains in my heart.-Me
Thank you so, so much to Moonbeam McQueen and Cristi Moise for their nominations. Love, hugs and kisses to both of you. I thank you for your support. I fucking love you all so damn much!!!
It’s been almost a year since I started this silly blog of mine. It has evolved. I have too. I’m not even sure who I am anymore. I like this new person I’ve become though. I do. I’m proud of the words that I write. The goofy and sometimes profound things I say. The music, the madness, the dirty stories, and the friends I’ve made. This is quite a community. I’m so pleased to be a part of it. I love to write. Everything. Everything. Everything. This is my calling.
I have been nominated for over 20 awards this year. Over 20! Five just last week. I need a trophy case! Growing up, I was the girl that was always picked last for sports and I never won anything. I was the weird girl. The drama girl. The musician. The loud girl that was looking for attention and someone to love me. I had huge boobs too. That’s about all I had going for me. Fortunately I married a wonderful man. Had great children. Made a good life. There was sadness and depression in this life too. Addiction.
That’s how all of this started. I was transforming; evolving. I was losing 150 lbs and re-discovering myself. As a woman. Not just a wife and mother. But a woman. I was learning that I was viable and vibrant. Beautiful. I shared my story and found that it was the story of so many others. We’re all going through our own lives of quiet desperation. I’m not trying to sound arrogant when I say I’m beautiful. I never thought I was. I still struggle with it. I totally get it when P!nk sings, Don’t Let Me Get Me. I’m prone to self-destruction. Madness even. Here, in this sphere though, I feel safe. Normal. It is my haven.
Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
Can’t take the person staring back at me
I’m a hazard to myself
Don’t let me get me
I’m my own worst enemy
It’s bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don’t want to be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
The Rules:
- Select the blogs you think deserve the ‘Blog of the Year 2012 Award’.
- Write a post and tell about the blogs you have chosen and present them with their award.
- Please include a link back to this page and include these rules (do not alter the rules or the badges).
- Let the blogs you have chosen know that you have given them this award and share the rules with them.
- Click on my Facebook page on the right hand side of my blog
- As a winner of the award – please add a link back to the blog that presented you with the award – and then proudly display the award on your blog and sidebar … and start collecting stars…
The groovy thing about this award is you can give it to as many bloggers as you want. My list is long and probably doesn’t include everyone that is should. If I’ve forgotten you, I’m sorry. Also you can win this award up to six times, so pay it forward. And send it back to me if ya want. Wink, wink.
So here goes:
The Wanderer’s Thoughts: Because she writes beautiful poetry that melts my heart.
Boomie Bol: Because every word she writes is like music.
As Long as I’m Singing: Because he is my brother. He is. Well, I wish he was anyway.
Brainsnorts: Because he’s sarcastic and funny. Most of the time. I love every word he writes.
Tales of a Charm City Chick: Because she’s damn hilarious and beautiful too.
Christopher De Voss: Because he’s damn funny and gorgeous too.
Dean J. Baker: Because he was one of my first followers and his poetry makes me swoon.
You Know You’re Borderline When: Because she taught me that it was okay to be BPD.
Worldly Winds: Because I’m a sucker for beautiful poetry.
Breathtaking Portraits: Because I like pretty pictures of, everything.
Kyle Mew: Because there’s nothing like reading the lustful words of a dirty poet.
Susan Daniels Poetry: Because her poetry speaks to my soul.
Lead.Learn.Live.: Because David loves my potty mouth and thinks I rock. Oh and I think he rocks too.
Rincewind Erotixx: Because I love pin up style photography. And I think the female form is beautiful. Just beautiful.
Stories by Williams: Matt gave me one of my first award noms. Plus he’s a sci fi geek. And I just love me some sci fi.
Mind Retrofit 7: Her poetry is cosmic and mystical. Stars, moons and clouds are some of my favorite things.
Oyia Brown: Because she writes everything well. And she reblogs me. I love it. It warms my heart.
jensinewall: I love her photos, observations and writing.
Cat Forsley: She is a beautiful poet. A songwriter too. I know that if we lived closer, we’d be fast friends.
The Change You Life Blog: Because Stu was one of my first followers and has turned into a dear friend.
Just a Thought: Because her poetry is sad and dark. And she loves P!nk, just like me.
A Thin Girl: I love Susannah’s tag line, never judge a girl by her weight. She’s funny, sad, sarcastic, and all kinds of other good things. She makes me long to live in NYC.
Paula Acton: Because she is brilliant and British. I love her writing. Plus she wears her hair in a Pixie, just like me.
The Reclining Gentleman: I just know he’s young, dashing and handsome. He makes me kinda tingly with his writing.
You Jivin’ Me Turkey: I followed this guy because he’s a quotes whore and so am I. I have found him to be so much more though. He’s a charmer and a sweet, sweet man. I long to share a cozy couch, 80’s movies and popcorn with him.
Thankyou hun xxx and you deserve it 😀
Thanks my dear. I’ll send the information to you about the nomination process in just a few.
one back at you i have nominated you for http://paulaacton.wordpress.com/2012/12/08/blog-of-the-year/
Thank you so much sweetheart. Mwah!
Well deserved… Congratulations!
Thanks my sweet.
Awwww you’re so kind thank you 🙂
You’re welcome. Love your words my dear. Every one of them.
CONGRATS!!!! You deserve it! Emily
Thanks so much my dear. Thanks.
Congratulations and thank you so much! 🙂
Alex 🙂
Thank YOU. I love your work.
Thank you very much indeed!! 😀
Congrats ! You deserve it ! Love, Cristi.
Love to you too Cristi.xoxoxoxo
AW thanks!!!!
Aw thanks back at ya babe.
Oh yes she did! And congrats and thanks by the way!
You’re welcome honey. I sent you the information on how to prepare your nomination. Thanks for all of your support Matt.
Congratulations! Well deserved 😉 Kim*
http://www.100days100ways.wordpress.com
Thank you my sweet.
Well deserved! Oh and thank you for nominating my blog! xx
Thank you and you are so welcome.
Congratulations Lovely !
Just goes to show you that when You Put your heart fully Into something —–
it moves people 🙂 ! Beautifulllllllllllllllllllll x 1000000000000000000 🙂 🙂 🙂
I will write it Up next week if that’s okay > xx Humbled thanks for thinking of me xx
🙂 i’m up to my ears in stuff – this week 🙂 but monday next 🙂 xo MUAH XX
Here’s my super super fave by PINK 🙂 awesomeness xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
huge hugs and CONGRATS 🙂
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOOX !!!!!!
You are so welcome my dear Cat. Thanks for the video. I’ve been listening to the song tirelessly. She is so damn talented. The song is haunting. Beautiful.
Much love to you my dear heart!!!!
🙂 AND you xo
Wicked!!!!!!!!!!! Love u girl
Thank YOU!
Congrats girl, well deserved and thx for the award to me as well… Big ass kisses coming yr way…
Thank you and you’re welcome my love. I’ll take all the kisses ya wanna give me. Giggle.
Congratulations!! Well deserved! ^^
Thank you my dear.
You make me smile. Your candor is something special. Your story (150 pounds, really? I would never have imagined) is out-of-the-world. Keep it going girl, keep it going.
Thank you David and I will. I don’t know if you can call it candor or the fact that I lack tact. Giggle. Thanks for all the support.
And btw, I consider it to be an honor to be on your short list of nominees. I’m humbled. Thank you.
Thank you my dear. Thank you.
Congrats!! Looking forward to looking through your nominations for other great blogs!
Oh honey there are so many. Please do follow them. You won’t be sorry.. 😉
Too kind, m’dear. I don’t nearly deserve the pleasure… =]
Shut up, you! You deserve so much more than this. You’ve taught me that the heart that beats in my chest is the heart of a good writer. You have made me better and I can’t thank you enough.
You’re Silly. I didn’t teach you, I simply went along with you on your ride =)
Strap in baby. We’re not done yet.
Well done girl! You deserve it!
Thank you my darlin’. I think you’re something special too. I really do.
Thanks so much Renee, you never fail to make me smile, and your transformation since I’ve been following you is amazing. Keep moving in the direction your heart takes you Renee – we’re lovin’ it. 🙂
Thank you my dear Stu. You were one of my first followers. I’m so glad you’re still here, cheering me on. There’s more words to come. And a video blog or two. Mwah!
congrats! I hope to someday get that too :3
Thank you hon. And my dear, keep writing. You will. Write everything about, everything. And you will. Glad you’re here.
You’re most welcome. And I’m trying but lately, as soon as December started, I haven’t had any inspiration to write, except yesterday when I had a huge fight with my parents, and I wrote a text about it. Just not sure if I should post it though…
x thank you!
We all have dry spells. Make a story out of it. Let it marinate for a few days. And then create something new out of it. Might work.
Good advice. I can’t just let a few days go by without posting though… and my normal all day life is soo boring…
people wouldn’t want to read that.
I used to post every day. I try not to. But sometimes the words flow and I can’t help it. About your supposedly boring life, people still want to know more. They do. They want to read the stories, poetry and prose, along with your story. They really do.
I know that feeling. During November I could write to about three posts a day. Stories, thoughts, feelings… and now, it feels like I don’t have any more stories or feelings or interesting facts left
x
Oh honey, they’ll come back. They will. Don’t force them.
Sure hope so…
Happy for you Renee. Honored you put me on your list. I too was the oddball in school…taller than everyone, moody, sensitive. Always remember, pain, past and present will forever fuel your writing which soars off the page. Congrats!
Thanks for the sweet words Susannah. I knew we were kindred spirits. Your writing is beautiful, funny, sad, sarcastic, etc. It fuels stories within me. Gives me more words to say. I like that. I like you. And I hope someday we’ll meet at the Carlisle and share a drink or two with Camille. Congratulations to you. I’m glad you’re here.
Congratulations!
X
Thanks so much my dear.
You are a sweetheart Renee, a sweetheart. Congrats on this well deserved award and thanks so much for sharing it with me. Big warm hugs my dear
Big warm hugs to you too. Thank you for following me and inspiring me too.
congrats and thank you so much.
http://loveamongotherthings.wordpress.com/2012/12/05/2012-blog-of-the-year-award/
Back at ya babe!
Very well done. Congratulations.
Thank you so much my dear. Thank you.
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