Tunesday-Clarity by Zedd featuring Foxes

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I dive into frozen waves
Where the past comes back to life
Fight fear for the selfish pain
It was worth it every time

Hold still right before we crash
Cause we both know how this ends
Our clock ticks till it breaks your glass
And I drown in you again

Cause you are the piece of me
I wish I didn’t need
Chasing relentlessly
Still fight and I don’t know why

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?

Walk on through a red parade
And refuse to make amends
It cuts deep through our ground
And makes us forget all common sense

Don’t speak as I try to leave
Cause we both know what we’ll choose
If you pull, then I’ll push too deep
And I’ll fall right back to you

Cause you are the piece of me
I wish I didn’t need
Chasing relentlessly
Still fight and I don’t know why

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?

Why are you my clarity?
Why are you my remedy?
Why are you my remedy?
Why are you my remedy?

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?

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Quoteful Thursday-I’m Constantly Explaining Myself

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I am constantly explaining myself to almost everyone in my life. It’s exhausting. I just want to be loved for who I am, not what you need me to be. I am human, and I am flawed. I am woman, but more than that. I am a writer, lover, whore, mother, saint, sinner, and child. I am love.
–Renee Heath–

Sir Dorian Vega of  The House of Vega, a society and culture page on Facebook took a comment of mine and posted it as a quote. I was incredibly honored that he thought enough of what I had written to do so. It was shared 13 times by people all over the world. That means that maybe, just maybe today someone thousands of miles away from my little corner of the world is sharing the words that I wrote. Maybe, just maybe, they are being read and changing the life of someone that feels the same way I do, sometimes. Maybe, just, maybe.

Love and kisses my friends.

Sparkly Girl

Sparks of Madness

Madness.
Proud of it.
Thrive on it.
Live and love it.
Want more.
Need it.
To realize my passion.
To be me.
It’s my spark.
My genius.
My freedom.
I’m free in my Madness.
So free.
My words help me harness it.
Reign it in.
Revel in it.
I love my Madness.
Others see me as crazy.
I find comfort in that fact.
Let them think it.
For I know the truth.
It’s my Madness that gives me my spark; my passion.
I will continue to grow while they spoil.

A Message from the Great Bill Hicks

Not much to say on this Monday afternoon. I know you’re all completely shocked! All I want to say is vote tomorrow. I don’t give a shit who you vote for. Actually, I do. I’m a liberal. I’m a big mouth. I give a shit about marriage equality. I give a shit about the right for a woman to choose a safe abortion. I believe in liberty and justice for all. Not just rich, white people. I believe that everyone is created equal. I believe that we are all the same and should get paid the same. I believe in a person’s right to worship to their own god. I’m a Christian, but I have no right to persuade anyone into believing that my God is the one true god. For me, he is. I believe that Jesus was the first hippie liberal. And I will follow his doctrine to love everyone.

As you can see I also believe in Bill Hicks. I loved that man. He was not only funny, but he told it like it was and still is. Let us go out there and use our brains when we vote tomorrow. Make the right choice. We need to change. We need to evolve. We need to be better.

Yes, I will vote for Obama.

Not because he’s black. Not because he’s the best man for the job. But because he is more like me. His family is more like my family. I do believe he is genuine. I’m not a political pundit. I try my best to watch MSNBC and stay informed. I don’t believe the man is infallible. Anyone that thinks that about their president, needs their head examined. I want our country to head in the right direction. I do believe with Obama at the helm, he will. At least I pray that he does.

Oh yeah and like my FB author page. I guess I get more treats after I reach 200 or more likes. I need 39 more to reach that goal. Who the hell knows what I’ll get. Could be a kick in the pants for all I know.

Letting Go….(In Other Words, Nut Up or Shut Up)

If you follow me then you know of my love for Marilyn Monroe. She is my favorite bombshell. She was broken and thought to be just another dumb blonde but often said the most profound things. I’m kind of a quote aficionado. Harry and I have shared many quotes with each other throughout our friendship. One of them is mentioned in the graphic above.

Sometimes we have to let go of someone. Even if that someone somehow makes us better. Makes us who we are. Completes us. But if we don’t, we’ll never find and strive for the passion in the life we’ve already built.

As I write and get feedback from other bloggers, I find so many people leading lives of quiet desperation. Why? Don’t we, the passionate ones, write about leading fulfilling lives? That life is to be filled with happiness? Have we become complacent? Believe that this is what we deserve? It’s BULLSHIT! We deserve full lives, we deserve deep and abiding love, we deserve to be desired. We need to find our passion in those that makes us better. We need not live with complacency. Or be afraid to move on if necessary.

Do NOT become complacent. Don’t ever settle. If you do you’ll become a fat drunk like I used to be. And then when you find your passionate outlet it will burn out of control. Harness it, but feed it. Surround yourself with people that make you better, that don’t hinder you. Don’t let them make you question your beliefs, or maybe even your sanity.

Finding this blog world helped me to do just that. Getting healthy, losing weight, getting sober, finding my own strength helped me too. A dear friend told me that I found my way on my own. I believe that’s true to an extent. I also let go of a lot of anger, frustration, and sadness.

I can’t say that letting go is easy. It’s not. It’s like death. It is death. We must mourn it. But in our grief we must find our light. Our task is then to never let that light in our souls be extinguished. By anyone or anything……