I’m a Christian that can’t stand the idea of organized religion. Why is that?

    • “Then he saith to Thomas: Put in thy finger hither, and see my hands; and bring hither thy hand, and put it into my side; and be not faithless, but believing. Thomas answered, and said to him: My Lord, and my God. Jesus saith to him: Because thou hast seen me, Thomas, thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen and have believed.”—John 20:27-29

Quite simply because it involves dealing with humans and not the concept of Christianity itself. I follow the teachings of Jesus Christ. I know that he is my Lord and Savior. That he has been with me through the good and most difficult times in my life. I pray when days are good and I pray when my will has been shattered. I have tried my damnedest to teach my children that their religion is up to them. But I ultimately hoped they would decide to be Christians too. My daughter did choose Christ, my son still has a wait and see or Agnostic attitude. He knows there’s something more, but he’s just not sure what it is. I’ve told him many times that’s what faith is. You don’t have to see, hear, smell, touch or taste it to know it’s there. That it will keep you safe….

I am a realist though, too. I know, I know, walking contradiction, right? But I do believe that bad things happen to good people. My dear husband has lost both parents to cancer so he is at times still angry at God for taking them from him. There’s nothing like watching your parent waste away to nothing from a disease and wondering why it had to happen. I can understand his anger, but I also wish he would just let go and know that they aren’t suffering anymore. They are in Heaven with the ones that went before them. However, DSH wants his parents here with him, sharing in all the good and bad in our lives. He shouldn’t have become an orphan at the age 48. It isn’t fair……

I told a dear friend today that God is always with us, but the Devil is there too. Even when something unspeakable is happening to us. Done by another human, God is still there. It is the free will of others that can hurt us, damage us, destroy us. That is when we have to have the most faith in God. To let go and let God, as it were. I’m not saying prayer is the only way to save yourself. It isn’t. We have to give ourselves over to more than just God. We have to realize that we are good people, that we deserve good lives, that we need extra help and the strength of others to fix us. God gave those people that help us, the knowledge. Just like God gave the scientist that believes in evolution that knowledge. Even if that scientist doesn’t believe in a higher power. They still got their knowledge from God.

My husband just said something profound, maybe we don’t lose our faith, it just goes on hiatus. We sometimes wait until we need it to acknowledge God again. But the fact remains that we always have it, even when it gets lost….. I do not know all of the scriptures, I don’t know every book in The Bible, and I probably can’t recite too much. But I know that I can find comfort in the words and teachings of Jesus. That He ultimately is by my side and in my heart.

It makes me sad when my son or a friend tells me they don’t believe in God or Heaven or Hell. It makes me sad because I know that if I get the chance to go to Heaven when I die, that they won’t be with me for Eternity. If I get the chance to be there I want them to be there too. To live with no more pain, and suffering and to feel the healing touch of God. I want that for everyone that I love…..

I will never believe that God has a scorecard. He doesn’t care if we go to church. He cares that we believe, that we live our lives by his guidebook, The Bible. That we believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God. And that we find strength in both Him and his Father…. And He cares that we teach our children that faith, hope and love are the three most important things to live by. Amen.